I woke up Wednesday Morning, November 5th - the first day of the retreat, to the Sun shining through my window. The participants were supposed to be arriving with the chauffeurs in a few hours time. I said "thank you Hashem, 1,000 times, thank you." I felt adrenaline and another feeling that I didn't recognize (yet) coursing through my veins.

Whenever I feel something new lately, I don't try to figure it out. I just tell my mind "I'm building capacity for being more and holding more, that's all we need to know."

I took a shower, let my hair dry in the sun, wearing the robe I had purchased for all of us on the retreats. I had a coffee with almond milk, water with lemon, and delicious nutrient dense chicken broth with chicken and vegetables inside - it was Chani's idea and the perfect way to fill myself up with vitality from the inside out.

Rochel then took lots of photos of me outside, in a dress that Chani had told me to put on lol. She told me it would look amazing with the table and the leader of this retreat needs photos. I went to put on the dress and we frolicked around outside taking photos, with the sun just showing off, scattering glitter everywhere we walked.

The day before, I had posted one photo of the gorgeous view on my stories with these words:

"What does one do with a dream come true?"

It was a rhetorical question, but one of my incredible clients actually responded with a deeply beautiful answer. He is a father and grandfather of many children and grandchildren and when I read his response, I cried with resonance, reverence, and recognition of the truth he shared with me.

His message said: "They realize that the journey mattered just as much as the view."

That is the truthiest truth (and the frequency of freedom) to me.

Now that we are on the other side of this experience, I recognize that the unfamiliar feeling was the stretching of my capacity to hold more - more blessings, feelings, receiving that I had ever imagined possible.

My prayer: Hashem, God, I'm open to being a channel for life, for healing, for hope, for receiving, for redemption.

What a pleasure it is to become.