An elderly teacher, close to 100 years old told me something precious at a retreat that I was attending a few years ago:

She said "Rivky, how good can you actually stand it?"

and I knew exactly what she meant...

You see, I knew how to process, and be with trauma. Create space for my shadow, my stickier parts, allow my messy aspects to be seen. Stay with my symptoms and defenses long enough to feel the medicine in them. How to allow my feelings, feel them deeply, grieve and even be angry. (Who here has seen my anger practice ;)

But she was not referring to those things...

she was referring to the niggling feeling I had inside of myself: that if the kind of pleasure, receiving, more than goodness, life force I was saying I was ready for would come meet me, would arrive at my door, would I open all the way and let it in?

Would I allow receiving to find me? How much pleasure can I actually take in? How much goodness, overflow, delight does my nervous system actually have capacity for?

I spent time asking myself that question each day, and spent the past few years showing, not telling my nervous system that it is safe to receive: goodness, pleasure, kindness, joy, just for Being. Every day I hear my elderly teachers voice in my head "Rivky, how good can you actually stand it?"

A few weeks ago, my client was telling me about the abundance and pleasure and delight she was calling in. I saw her posture and her nervous system contracting as she was speaking about what she desired, her body was speaking a different story.

I supported her in slowing it all down so she can feel herself and she started to cry:

She said "even if receiving and pleasure would come rushing in, I don't know if I'd be able to stand it. I've gotten so comfortable with discomfort, that feeling good almost feels bad. Besides, I might feel guilty, unworthy, etc. For the kind of life I REALLY want - do you know what I mean?"

Luckily for her she received 3 gifts from her vulnerability:

1)the gift of the relief of saying the truth to herself, of being real with the moment, and taking her fears out of it's hiding place of shame

2)the gift of being witnessed without judgement and with resonance. Even though I didn't speak in the moment, I knew she could feel in the field that she knew that I knew how that felt (and she confirmed that later in the day)

3)We had the opportunity to do identity work, and shatter the ceiling/upper limit on what she believed and perceived was possible for her to receive. We replaced the old Identity with the truthiest truth: I am that I am. Underneath it all, we a piece of the divine, having a Human Experience

From that place, each and every day since she told me about the pleasure, miracles, and wonder that was moving through her life. Her upper limit on what she believed was possible at the level of her identity, was shattered. Replaced by the truth of her Being - she is a piece of God, a Neshama/soul having a Human experience.

From that place of embodied I AM - the world of infinite possibilities and probabilities was blown wide open for her.

Her capacity for pleasure is larger than anything she was previously even able to imagine. She is now a match for overflow. to be delighted, surprised,

All without bypassing her real human feelings (as many of the manifestation tools she learned before encouraged her to do)

She told me: I didn't know I can be a whole, integrated human with real complex feelings, shadow, and light AND live in this level of overflow in the NOW before I'm all "healed" (lol)

Last week, in the State of Being, our new community membership, the class was on the foundations of all of this: the method my clients and I use to move into states of expansion without spiritually bypassing. I also shared the basics of Identity work. From here on in... we are going IN. Expanding our capacity to receive, believe and Be alive, with overflow, pleasure, and show ourselves how good we can stand it... and create all of this from our State of Being!

Is there more for you? In expression, receiving, resting, overflow, goodness, embodiment?

Come join us in the community membership where we will retrieve what is already yours, without bypassing your humanity or feelings. Where you can be a whole, integrated human AND a vessel for tremendous abundance of all kinds.