As I go to bed really soon the night before the first day of the retreat, I'm reflecting on my day.

I received dozens and dozens of DM's today from both friends, clients, and people who I have never met here on instagram. So many that I will take the time to respond after the retreat.

People were sending prayers, sharing their breakthroughs they are experiencing, just by choosing to tap into the energy of this retreat, seeing photos here, and feeling into it. I got a few messages like this and I was awestruck and inspired, and then, after a few hours away from my phone I saw many, many more such messages.

2 people even sent me gorgeous poems inspired by what they were feeling from my posts. Someone here that I have never met before in this lifetime, painted a painting to share how her whole inner world is shifting... just by reading these posts and tapping into this energy with her full heart.

Art is so healing. The fact that I could inspire that by being myself and sharing in this way makes me feel like creating more art, which then, in turn, will make others feel that way, and so it goes...

It doesn't all make logical sense to my mind. Why me, this, now, how?

But my heart is open and ready, and I keep choosing to follow it into the unknown. To allow my desires to wake me more and more from a certain long (collective?) slumber, and open me up to a life that is full of what it feels like to be truly alive.

I am feeling anticipation growing. It is a grounded anticipation, knowing that I have chosen to plug fully into Hashem, the source of it all, and Hashem will sustain this group, me, and what we are creating. Hashem meets us where we are at, with our full hearts, of that I am certain.